Saturday, November 19, 2011

If you're interested in trying digital scrapbooking...

... to make your Christmas cards, or maybe just to make your memories this Christmas look a little extra snazzy, I recommend the My Memories Suite Software! I've used this software for 3 years now. It's SUPER easy to use, and allows you to get your creative juices flowing! There are some quick layout options on their site, and they often have beautiful digital elements for FREE on their site, too!

Best of all, what I love, is that there's no waiting for a disc of your software to arrive in the mail -- you can simply download it right from their site! http://www.mymemories.com/digital_scrapbooking_software

If you're interested in this software, I have a PROMO CODE for you to use: STMMMS50306
Use this code and receive some freebies right off the bat! (Here's an example of one of their freebies

Free Download
http://www.mymemories.com/store/share_the_memories_kit_1
I recommend you give it a try this Holiday Season!



Disclaimer: I am a Share the Memories "Affliate" ; however, my views on the product are truly my own.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

:: today ::

Today I sat and talked with some best friends...
And looked in wonder at some others.
Today I chatted with an old friend...
And was filled with joy for another.
Today I took a deep breath to prepare...
And opened my eyes to see.
Today I hugged an old friend...
And looking back I saw an old me.
Today I saw promise...
And held hope in my grasp.
Today I sat and wondered...
But now today is gone past...

Monday, June 20, 2011

The promise of a wish...

The other day my daughter had an eyelash on her cheek. She promptly placed it gently on her fingertip, closed her eyes, mumbled softly and blew it away into the wind. The promise of a wish.
"I can't tell you what I wished, Mommy, cuz then it won't come true."

For some reason that, to me, was so sad. The promise of a wish.

As an adult now, I can tell you that many of my birthday wishes, my bedtime pleas, my fallen eyelash wishes have not come true.  I've never been to Disney World, Scotland, or Australia. I still didn't get to date that one guy. I haven't won a million dollars. But when I made those wishes, the promise that each held was of the utmost importance at the time.

They didn't come true.

I felt myself suddenly so sad for my dear daughter holding so fast to whatever promise she just had in that eyelash wish. Would that wish ever come true? How would I know? What would she be wishing for in the future?

So, I asked her. "What was your wish, honey?!"
"I can't tell you; it won't come true."
"Well, what's something you've wished for before? Not this time, but other times?"
"Well, honestly, mommy, I wish a lot to someday meet the real Hannah Montana!"

And with this simple admission, I knew I could make a difference in her empty promised wishes.

"Well, you know what? Sometimes wishes have a funny way of coming true."
"What do you mean?"
"Well, maybe God knew somehow that you'd probably never get to meet the real Hannah Montana, right?! But who did we go to see last year?!"
"Emily Osment"
"And who is she?!"
"Lily, Hannah Montana's best friend!"
"Exactly! And so God knew that if you'd never get to see Hannah Montana, at least you'd be able to say someday that you met her best friend! It was like your wish came true in a different way! Isn't that cool?"
"Now that I think of it, Mommy, I think that Emily Osment knew how special it was for me to be there! Remember how she waved right to me & gave me that piece of paper (set list)?! Wow. It was like my wish coming true in a different way!"

And with that I felt relieved. I felt as though she wouldn't have to live in the shadow of empty wishes. At least she had some hope... Some reason to keep on wishing because her wishes could be answered in another form. Happy sigh. Smile.


And someday when she's older, I'll tell her how for so many years, she was my fallen eyelash, my birthday candle wish, my tears softly falling at night. She is my wish come true.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

The Morning Commute

It starts, pretty much running and screaming, trying to get 2 kids into the truck somewhere between 7:30 and 7:38am. Monday through Friday. That's the first step. It ain't pretty, honey, let me tell you!

And so the half hour journey begins. While the scenery is beautiful,  traveling isn't always so much. The road is a country winding route - full of "promise" in one direction, seemingly endless "potholes" in the other. (I use the term 'potholes' gently. "Craters" may be a better term.) One day we saw 39 deer, in one direction. Gotta watch those critters; they can jump out of nowhere it seems.

The music is on loud -- the kids' requested cd. They know it off by heart. I know it off by heart. In fact there's one track that we listen to at least 3 times in the half hour drive. Oh my. Sometimes I get a piece of toast or a sock thrown at me from the backseat. There's poking, and tears and hollering. But, there's also those moments when they pleasantly sing along (and they do it so well that sometimes I get tears in my eyes!).

The funny part of the drive is the other regular commuters.

I have to make the turn up the hill before that friggin' little red, falling apart Toyota gets on the road. The driver doesn't go over 70km/h, at all! And, given the route and the animals, and the potholes, and the plethora of people traveling in the promising direction, passing is not really an option.

Then there's the regular wavers. My good mornings with out a sound. They're all traveling in the promising direction. I meet the same vehicles every morning. Some of them I've been meeting in roughly the same spot each morning for 10 years now.

Billy's usually first. I found out his name at a hockey game. He was with someone I knew. He recognized me as "the driver of such-and-such a car." LOL We've been good buddies since. We chat about the other regulars on the road, the road conditions, lack of plowing in the winter, hockey, the news, etc. Billy is my first morning wave of cheer everyday.

Anne buzzes along next. I've known her for years in various ways. She waves every few days. (May be the morning fog. Or menopause.)

There's the couple I don't know. They won't wave. We meet in the same spot each morning. I've started beeping my horn happily at them to be friendly. LOL If they land in the ditch someday, I'll stop and help them. My horn beeping is my way of extending my hand...

There's the blue car waver. The sometimes-if-it-dawns-on-me greenish truck waver.

Hello, Mister out for your morning walk. I could set my watch by him.
Walker #2 with the funky (?) outfits. LMAO

Hey, Mister big smile always bundled up walker... Where have you been? I haven't seen you in a few  weeks now that I think of it. Hmmmmm. Sad thing is, I can't even enquire because I don't know his name.

LIttle scruffy white doggie... stay the hell in your yard. You're gonna get hit!!!!!!

Another blue car waver. Silver car waver. Former student driving the yellow car, Good morning!

Hi, car with distinctive license plate who's erratic path scares me sometimes.

Potholes 1-1,789: You may be the death of me as I have to drive on the opposite side of the road to escape your wrath. :(

Ahhhhhhh.... it's a beautiful drive. It truly is. And in true country fashion, it rarely changes.

I wonder if people in big cities can have a commute as friendly and predictable with the human connection that mine has?

Til tomorrow morn'...

Sunday, April 3, 2011

My hubby's turning 40 and I'm feeling guilty...

You know that time in your marriage when you've had kids, you're sleep deprived and the slightest little thing your spouse does gets on your nerves? Well, I hate those moments. I hate those moments because it's in those moments that I can't be the biggest, yet most silent bitch. I know this. It's "mommy drain."

I get mommy drain about once a day. Ok, I'll admit it may occur more frequently during certain times of the month, but I know I get mommy drain at least once a day; those moments when I sigh, pout, roll my eyes, mutter, etc. During these moments there's no real reasoning with me. There's no pacifying me, because if my hubby tries to pacify me, then I'll be even more pissed off because I'll think he's pacifying me even if he's not. These moments are really a no-win situation. Poor hubby. All the while, during these moments, I'm thinking "poor me"! I'm tired. The kids are driving me crazy. There's too much to do. Not enough time.Everything is mundane...

Sigh. Sadly, these moments happen and go off with out much acknowledgement from hubby or myself. Maybe that's good, maybe it's bad. In the end it all works out. 

How to avoid mommy drain!?

We all read about all the things we should do as moms, as couples, as friends and lovers to help avoid this mommy drain. In this house, we don't really do them. We each have our "me" time (Can you say Masters Weekend coming up, where I leave the house to hubby to watch in peace?!?!). We don't really do date nights, but we have outings with the kids which are fun. We do have the rare moments maybe once every couple of months when we have time together without kids. We have a good division of household management. We talk. We communicate. But, all this aside, there are still those moments where I rear that ugly mommy drain head.

Sigh. 

So, with hubby's 40th birthday coming up, I'm feeling guilty. I feel like he needs to know this stuff.
 
He needs to know that even though he's an old man (joke)....

He needs to know that I'm not proud of those moments. 
He needs to know that I'm trying to be the best mom I can be, and am probably failing at being the best wife I can be.

But he also needs to know that I love him dearly. I love the way he makes me laugh. I love his sick sense of humour. I love how we've grown together and grown older together (well, him more than me obviously... Since he practically robbed the cradle...). I love that we created these 2 beautiful, crazy, dramatic, funny children and that, although we berate it sometimes (re-creating his brother wasn't in our plans) our DNA mixed together produced a pretty fine mixture. 

And, although I have mommy drain, I know that right now those 2 children are our priority because they're only this young for so long.... So short a period of time... We have to embrace it, make the most of it and enjoy it while it lasts. 

When they grow older and we grow older, we'll have lots of time to spend together and grumble together and simply BE together. 

I'm sorry for the mommy drain. It's not me. It's not you. It's life right now. And I don't think we'd trade it for the world. 

Happy Birthday, bud. 
I love you.